Sunday, April 18, 2010

I heart all of you...

A Sweet friend of mine sent this to me...It spoke to my I wanted to share it with you

Forgive everyone for everything.

Life isn't fair but its still good.

Time heals almost everything, so give time, time.

Don't compare your life to others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.

You don't have to win every argument, agree to disagreements.

 Try to make at least three people smile each day.

Before bed each day complete the following: Today I am grateful for.... Today I accomplished....

Call your family often.

Dream More while your awake.

What other people think of you is non of your business

Sit in silence at least 10 minutes a day.

Enjoy the ride, Remember this isn't Disney World and you do not want a Fast pass,Make the Most of it and 
enjoy the ride. 

Smile and Laugh More it will keep he energy Vampires away. 

Don't take yourself so one else

Realize that life is school and you are here to learn, and pass tests. Problems are simply part of the cirriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class, but the lessons you learn will last a life time.

Your job wont take care of you when you are sick, your friends will so stay in touch. 

No one is in charge of your happiness except you. 

Life is to short to waist time hating anyone. 

Spend more time with people over the age of 70 and under 6. 

When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement...My purpose today is....

Remember you are blessed to be stressed. 

No matter how you feel, Get up, Dress up, Show up.....

The Best Is Yet to come...Believe 

Burn the Candles, use the nice sheets, Don't save it for a special occasion, Today is Special.

Make Peace with your past so it won't mess up the present. 

However good or bad the situation is, it will change. 

Live with the three E's.... Energy, Enthusiasm, Empathy and the three F's.......Faith, Family, and Friends

Ty all for being my friends and loving me ..... I love you.....I miss you xoxo Seraphim and I are doing great! I'm crazy busy between multiple jobs but I'm able to work at home and be with Seraphim and I love it....MUAH Love you all xoxo

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

8 is Great!

She finds love in everything

This angel I live with...what a joy. I have never know such a loving child. She finds love in everything. Everywhere we go she sees hearts everywhere. In bites taken out of apples, snow flakes, orange peels, snow flakes, ripped paper, candy, clouds, anything you can think of. At least once or twice a day she finds love in everything. She is so willing to share her love, say I love you, show her love. She wants everyone to feel loved, she doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I learn how to love better from her and her example.  I'd like to think I had a  small part in showing her love. I hope we all can find love in everything, most importantly God's love for us. She truly does see things through rose tinted glasses........She is my love...and my best friend...and my light....

Friday, January 29, 2010

Mermaid Tears

When ever I go to the ocean, I collect beach glass....I don't collect much, but its something Seraphim and I do together. I am quite sentimental and I believe in love. I know there is love out there that will last forever, its not easy, but its worth it. I am looking for that love, and I want to teach my daughter about that love. So what does Eternal love have to do with beach glass..well Read this story and maybe you'll collect  beach glass as I do.....

When graceful, tall-masted sailing ships ruled the oceans of the world, sailors exchanged stories in port, whispering of beautiful and exotic sea creatures. Word spread of these graceful maidens who swam with ships and held the power of the waves and the luck of the sailors in their hands. The maidens could change the mighty course of nature, but were forbidden to do so by Neptune, the stern, watchful god of the sea.

One dark, storm-ravaged night, with sails ripping and masts cracking, a schooner fought to find safety in Friendly Cove off Nootka Island in the San Juans. The ship was familiar to the mermaid who swam along its side . . . she had weathered many crossings with the ship and its captain. As the ship heeled in the violent wind, the captain lost his hold on the wheel, tumbling perilously close to the raging sea. In an instant, the mermaid calmed the wind and tamed the waves, changing the course of nature and saving the life of a man she had grown to love from afar.

For her impetuous act, Neptune banished the sobbing mermaid to the oceans depths, condemning her for eternity never to surface or swim with the ships again. To this day, her gleaming tears wash up on the beaches of Puget Sound as beach glass . . . crystalline treasures in magic sea colors, an eternal reminder of true love.

May each of you find love like this...that would give so much....I know that I have been blessed to love and be loved much in my life. I don't regret and love I have given....Even after the heartache, and the Loss, and the lonleyness....I still believe in Love, a forever love....and I know that I'll be blessed to share that same love with someone else someday....God bless you all. I love you! xoxo laura

Saturday, January 16, 2010

A New Year

I have never been one to make New Year’s Resolutions. I hate starting something I know I can't finish. I am all about however setting goals and so Seraphim and I sat down and talked about what we wanted in life. I did make the exception this year and make New Year’s Resolutions, 4 actually......1. Be HAPPY! 2. Have FUN!! 3.Be Grateful 4. Be Good. Sera was a great help in this. Being Grateful was her suggestion. I am amazed all the time by her good nature and grown up attitude. I have wanted more than anything for her to be happy. I feel like this past month we have been VERY successful at our goals, even with trials and forces working against us. I have noticed a change in her. I can't remember what we were talking about the other day but I she said "Mom you don't need to worry about it, that’s my job... I informed her it wasn't her job it was mine because Heavenly Father gave her to me to take care of then she said Remember I chose you and I said yes but I’m still your mother and she said yes but I'm still your guardian angel....we laughed.... Her heart is always in the right place. I want to be more like her. She has had some challenges in school this year. The class is very big and the past few years I have been in her classroom volunteering often so I pretty much know what’s going on most of the time. I haven't had that this year. I've asked to be included in helping but parents in the classroom aren’t something they do here. Not knowing what’s going on I didn't realize what was going on. I could tell things were weighing on her. We sat down and talked about things. Her class has several girls who are refugees from Africa, these girls haven’t been very nice to her and she isn't very tall and most of them are nearly a head taller. Her and I talked about what these girls have been through, leaving their home and their family, going through hard times and that sometimes people going through hard times act out because they don’t know how else to act. She has prayed for these girls. The other day she came home and told me that these girls and her were now friends, and I asked what had changed and she said nothing. I just told them I knew what they were going through and that I had left my home and family too. Ever since then we've had no trouble from them. Her first instinct was to pray for these girls, who were treating her badly, and to sympathize with them, not get angry or say mean things. I learn from Seraphim often. I'm excited about what this year will bring... I know we are loved.... I love and miss my friends, my family and people close to my heart.... I know I haven't been the best friend during the last few months and have missed out on some good times, but my love and prayers are with you.

Thursday, December 3, 2009


My angel is sleeping. Before she was born I knew that she was an angel sent here to save me. I have often asked why me. Why did she agree to come here and make me her mother? She could have gone to a happy home, with a white fence and a dog. She could have gone to a home with two loving parents who love each other. She could have had so much more and yet she chose me. When she could barley talk she told me that before she came to earth she told Jesus that’s the pretty mommy I want right there and he let her come to me. I knew she had to be telling the truth. When she was younger she often talked about being an angel but she chose to come to earth and be with me. I’ve always accepted that she was exactly what she said she was an angel. Her name was either going to be Gabriel, or Seraphim. How suiting, two angel names. Seraphim, a type of angel was spoken of in the bible. I have no doubt that for whatever reason this angel was given to me as a protector. The moonlight is coming through the small window to our basement bedroom. The way the light shines on her face gives her an angelic glow. Her face is so perfect. The house is nearly silent other than the space heater next to our bed. I turn it off so I can hear her breath. There is something so calming and peaceful about watching her sleep. I often find myself watching her sleep. She sleeps so soundly that she never notices when I run my fingers gingerly through her soft blond curls. How is it that something so perfect is part of these circumstances that are so far from perfection. It seems almost unfair that this angel is part of my life, part of my world. Looking at her like this is the only time I allow myself to weep. I cry for her loss, cry for her pain, and cry for having caused her so many trials. She is so young and yet has had to endure so much. She has had to grow up so fast. Sometimes I forget that she is a small child, one with dreams and hope, one who still believes in something more. It’s perfect moments of peace like this that get me through the tuff moments of my days. It’s a perfect moment where all the wrong and heartache cease. Sometimes I think that if I look at her long enough, and stay close that some of her hope and light will rub off. Tonight as we held each other and prayed, I was almost taken back by her sincere concern for me. Why should this child, my angel have to worry about me. Should she be worrying about which toy she wants to sleep with or what cartoon she wants to watch in the morning? Instead she prays that I’ll find a job, that I’ll finish my game, and that she can go to the right church since her father refuses to take her, and forces her even when she protests to go to another church. She ended her prayer thanking God for me, for me taking care of her, and for me storing food so that we had some even though we don’t have much money. Nothing slips past her, she pick up on everything. I am sad that she thinks she has to take care of me and worry about money or where the food is coming from. She’s just a baby, just a small child and yet she is wise beyond her years. Seraphim has an old soul. She doesn’t seem to mind hanging out with mom, or reading with mom. That means more to me then she’ll ever know. We are each other’s best friend. She asks me all these questions about life, about hurting, about trials. Since when does a 7 year old have trials? Is it because of me that she has trials or even knows what they are? I believe that she has a special soul, one that is wise beyond its years. When I lose hope, she reminds me. She such a strong belief in prayer, she has such a perfect faith; I never knew that was possible from a child. By nature she is always concerned with those around her. She evaluates their moods. She is soft hearted and sensitive. This perfection, it almost scares me. I worry that someone so close to perfect, will be taken from me, taken from this life. I’ve never believed that I deserved her, but I always have known I needed her. She has given me so much, I only pray that I can give her something back, more than just the love of my whole heart. I hope she remembers who taught her how to laugh, taught her how to love, and taught her how to forgive. I guess these things I’m teaching her now have only come from a life full of trials. I think I can only teach her how to really forgive because I have had to forgive the unforgivable. I can teach her how to love because I have felt the Savior’s love when I didn’t deserve it and I have learned to love even when they don’t love me. I am able to laugh even when I want to cry. That’s what I can give her. She is easy to love, who wouldn’t love an angel. I know she is the best part of me. Even in the darkness of this night, I can see her light. Do you believe in guardian angels? I do. Seraphim has talked about the people she came to help. I was one of those blessed mortals to be visited by an angel. Her heart is so amazingly big. I wish moments like this could last forever that I could always remember her for who she really is. I think that there are so many other angels among us. If we treated people like that’s who they were, perhaps we’d start to recognize those qualities in them. Sometimes in moments like this I forget about the trials outside, the heartache, the bills, everything. I think losing everything makes me feel like I have everything. I have an angel with me, living with me, loving me. I have more that I could ever ask for, and surviving this life, and enduring so that I can be with her forever, that’s what matters to me right now, that’s what keeps me going. That’s what makes life worth it; know that there is more to it after this. Kiss your angels, thank God for allowing them to be in your life, and remember what Seraphim has taught me. There is hope, anything is possible. Hearts can be healed, people can soften, life will go one, God loves you, and you can change, you can be better than your circumstances, and stand up and be more. Love you all xoxo Laura

Sunday, November 22, 2009

My Snow Angel

This Is my Snow Angel Seraphim. We had a snow storm hit about 6pm. It came down fast and by 7 we couldn't resist going out and playing in the snow. Seraphim and I buil our very own Snow slide. It is amazing. We worked so hard and were so tired we only went down it a few times before we had to head in to bed. She also enjoyed making snow angels. She said "Mom look at all the snow we have, we  can make lots of things. She also was great to sing her own version of Once there was a snow man.... it went like this..... "once there was a snow girl, snow girl, snow girl, once there was a snow girl, tall tall the night she slided, slided, slided, in the night she slided all the way down.....She said this was the most amazing night ever. It reminded me of the night we built her first snow was late but the snow is perfect when it first comes down and if we had waited till tomorrow the snow wouldn't have stuck together well. Its neat to be outside at night when it is snowing because the moonlight reflects off the clouds and so it seems light out side. We didn't even need the pourch light.  Love you all....come over and use our slide...xoxo Laura